Joy comes in the morning...

Happy Easter all! This is a great time of year to reflect on what Jesus did for us! He paid the ultimate price and then rose again! He's Alive!

My morning started off well! Sadie went on a hunt for her Easter eggs and looked through her easter basket! By the end of it all she had lost her basket and wasn't able to have it returned until she could be sweet!  Sometimes I fear I have created a monster! My goal is to start living more simply. I don't want her to be bombarded with toys and things and her always thinking she needs more. (The Easter basket was only filled with art supplies, books, and a craft project) Something that unfortunately she has learned from her mother and father! I am making this a gradual change. I am slowly but surely getting rid of toys out of her room. I won't get rid of everything but will certainly find a way to "lose" all of the items that are just simply a waste of space and with it I will lose my frustration that I have paid for yet another thing that she had to have and sits on a shelf! I am going to make this change with myself as well! And it's going to start with a recent purchase from target and I have been guilt ridden ever since! Start putting your thoughts and feelings into action today! If you feel this is you make baby steps towards a simpler life. 

Our prayer for today: God help us to be content with the things we have and take away our constant need for more. We have all we need in Christ! Thank you for dying on the cross to take away my sin!  I know that every day we start fresh and there is so much hope in that my yesterday isn't
held against me! Joy comes in the morning! In your name I pray amen! 

It's been a "Good Friday"!

A fun day at the fair today!  It really was a "Good Friday"!  We had so much fun today just Sadie and I.  Sometimes I can feel sorry for myself and I feel so sad that Russ is deployed and we sit here to fend for ourselves.  But in reality this is an opportunity for Sadie and I truly bond.  I can become so frustrated with her and I feel like I spend most of my time yelling at her and getting mad over silly things.  Right now it is just me and Sadie and her daddy isn't here to protect her from the mean momma I can be sometimes.  I should cherish these moments that I have with her.  As we rode the tilt-a-whirl...I watched her.  I watched her laugh and squeal.  She was filled with joy and laughter.  That filled me with the same.  I want her childhood to be filled with these fun experiences with her mom. Not her remembering how hard I was on her.  Don't get me wrong, we all need to parent at times, it can't all be fun and games, but I also need to lighten up.  She's only 5 once.  I'm afraid that one day I'll open my eyes and she'll be graduating high school, getting married, having children of her own, and I'll regret not being the mother that I always dreamed I would be.  I'm not perfect and I know I will mess up.  But I know one thing...I'm going to try harder...I'm going to teach her how to be a loving mother and wife.

My prayer today;

Dear God,  help me to cherish every moment.  Help me to lighten up and fill my daughter's life with love and acceptance.  Help me to show her how to be a woman of God.   Let me be the role model in her life that I should be.  Forgive me for not always doing so.  It's not too late, its never too late.  AMEN