Tomorrow...

Well tomorrow is the last day that my boss will be my boss.  They are moving her to a different center.  Because she chose me to be her assistant I can't help but feel a little bit...insecure.  I'm not sure that the new director will like me, how we will work together, or if I will live up to her expectations.  Can't help but feel a little lost and sad.  A lot of the girls already know her and know what to expect but I'm not sure.  So here's to tomorrow the last day of normal as I know it!

Home...sick...

While I'm at work this morning and things are crazy as usual...I'm about to get on a conference call AND...they bring little miss Sadie to me with a 103 degree temperature.  Poor baby!  Feeling sooo guilty for leaving work, I took my monkey home to do some snuggling.  Nothing is worse though when you are home with a sick little one and you really having nothing to do.  Maybe I could catch up on my scrapbooking...Oh wait...I don't do that.  Or maybe my cross stitch...oh wait...  Or I could clean the house...who am I kidding, we all know I'm not gonna do that.  Sadie slept most of the afternoon and now up and running.  Gotta keep her home at least through tomorrow morning before we can go back to work.  In the meantime I gotta get a hobby!

Can't wait for Russ to get home to make life a little less boring!

Well...it's been almost a year....

Here we are in Jacksonville Florida.  We moved last October.  For some reason it didn't seem quite real.  Like I was just waiting for the news that we were moving back to Oklahoma.  Well, the latest is that Russ got his orders and we are here at least until 2017.  What???  2017.  Sadie will be 8 years old then.  That seems so crazy.  Oh well, that's the life of a military family right?

In the almost year that we have been here, we've moved from a beautiful home with crazy neighbors to a beautiful home where we are the crazy neighbors.  I was offered a great opportunity to be the assistant director at the daycare where I was teaching.  We've been going to a great church, Celebration Church...where we need to become more involved.  Things are going good right?  Well...I still feel like I'm waiting to go home.  Maybe after a while....I'll feel more at home.  I said to Russ the other day, who is in Oklahoma now, "I wish I could go home with you!"  and Sadie said, "Mommy, we are home!"  Oh, yeah, I guess this is home to her. 

I know, in my head, that I need to let go and create a life for us here.  But in my heart...I miss my mama, my daddy, and my sister.  I miss having friends to do things with on the weekends.  I miss going to my grandparents on the farm.  I miss spending holidays with people who I love and I know love me.  And you may say, "you are with people you love and who love you."  You're right, so why can't I just change my crappy attitude. 

Maybe if I keep talking about it...or maybe if I quit talking about it...things will eventually fall into place.